This post is for the people out there who cared enough to remember, people who have shaped me in ways i never thought was possible.
Firstly, i would like to talk about something that really made my day today. I received a call from someone whom i thought would have been a distant memory now. It was a girl i used to hang with during my time in a JC. I know what you guys are thinking, but no, she is just a friend. What made us friends was the few things we all shared in common. We spent 3 years in a JC, we had many common friends, we hung out tgt and often gossiped about things in school. I remembered there would be a time where we would actually meet up early in school, me to copy homework, while she sat opposite me and we gossiped about the things that went round the school. Sadly, things changed and well, we drifted due to our commitments with other friends (mainly me). But what made me smile so much today was the fact she called to talk despite her busy schedule and the fact she still had exams til next Thursday. The convo was nothing out of the ordinary (except for a few new juicy gossips), just that at one point, where she said something i would have never expected to hear from her. To hear her say that she missed the times we all spent together, whether it being just the 2 of us sitting at a table opposite each other among the other of hundred students in the canteen waiting for school to start, to the times where we always bumped into each other outside and spent time just talking (mainly about my lousy love life and other gossips), made me felt wanted, made me felt that despite the other things and distractions in life, people still remembered the things that are and will always be important to me. If you ask me, the 10 min we spent talking on the phone, was a nostalgic memory of 3 good years spent together. It is people like her that are outside my really close group of friends that make me feel that my life is worth living despite all the hurt and pain i have been through. To this girl, if you are reading this, thanks and yes, i look forward to meeting you soon and often, since your bf also happens to be one of my best friends and my future school mate. haha
To my group of close friends, we are no longer friends, we are brothers. Thats right fuckers, >7 years of friendship = bros forever. Thks for tonight, not only because you guys are awesome in so many different ways, but esp also because tonight was really the first night that you guys actually came down to the serangoon area and stayed past midnight. Haha, nothing beats a chill night chugging down 750ml beer that only cost 7 dollars and spending time talking about things ranging from songs to girl problems all the way to how our future would be like if we all had girlfriends/wives. My only regret is that our dear friend Jasper isnt here to see and experience this as that black man is over in Holland. Have fun getting high with kevin you asshole, make sure you come back sober enough to start school proper.
To my brother 2LT Lim Wei Ren, I thought hard about what you told me as we walked to the prata store after drinking. I dont believe that I have it harder when it comes to girl problems. Most of the time its always me, I never had the courage to do things that you did. I would never come close to having what you have, sharing a really really strong platonic relationship with your girls. From what i hear, they all really care about you. Sometimes its really sad to see how both parties are just shy to tell each other how they feel. I simply believe that we are just 2 different people when it came to finding love. Its hard for me because i always chose a battle i can never win. Its hard for you because i feel you just dont know what you really want. No situation is harder than the other. just like how an orange is the better fruit compared to an apple. They are just fruits, same for us, we all have our share of girl problems, just that they are never the same, so dont tell me i have it harder just because you never see me close to success with a girl, but thank you for understanding the problems i face in my life. All i want to say to you is just please regardless of who you eventually choose, always remember that the other is still your friend, and you wont be who you today when it comes to love without the other person.
To my other brother Wen Chuen, I am really sorry if i am being a dick to you on LOL sometimes, its just the way you play sometimes just makes me mad and screw you over just like another moron pub. You aint the worst ADC i have seen, i just want you to play better so we both can have enjoyable games. But what i wanna talk about in this para is what you discussed with the guys while drinking. Yes, we all have thought of the possibility of our GFs/ Wives hanging together when we all do. It would have been great or even awesome, and i really share that dream with you. But sadly, i have to agree with Wei Ren that a scenario like that is really really rare. We all go for different girls in our lives, and its not a definite thing that our partners would clique. Just like trying to fuck Avril Lavigne or Christina Grimme on the bathroom floor, the idea is ideal and seems perfect to some, but sometimes its just a dream that might be nothing more than points of discussion. All i can do is promise to try to bring my future gf (if i evern get one) into the group, but i cant promise anything more.
To my other brother Darren Seah, FUCK YOU, I THINK I LOOK GREAT WITH CENTER PARTING, SO FUCK YOU AND YOUR OPINION. DEAL WITH IT. =)
I would like to end this post by telling Jasper to take care of Karen, Kevin and obviously yourself while you are over there in Holland. Send my regards to them and tell them i really miss them. To the people out there who cared, thanks, i wouldn't be who i am without you all, you being a girl or guy.
Saturday 11 May 2013
Sunday 5 May 2013
Dreams
I recently watched Iron Man 3, and as a Marvel fan, all i could say was that i am sorely disappointed with the storyline, as much as yes, action was good in the film, but i have to say that it really kills me to see how Hollywood is using awesome marvel stories and characters and changing them into shit fuck. The Mandarin is a very classic example, if you are a true marvel fan, you would know that he is really a chinese guy who has magical rings and for some reason has a personal vendetta against tony stark, not some hippy druggie some hormone pumped multi millionaire picked up on the street. Nvm that you took the extremis stroyline and made it shit, you didnt even make it look cool. FYI, for all who are not marvel fans, the extremis is just s substance that rewrites coding in the brain enabling the user to unlock the body's full potential, esp the brain, and yes, tony stark took a dose to combat other motherfuckers who were trying to abuse extremis. What so fuck cool about that you may ask, he rewrote the codes of his body to actually store an ironman suit inside of his organic body. If you actually put that into the movie, i would have been less disappointed. The last time i actually felt this way was when some idiots decided to kill off Venom in spiderman 3.
Enough about me raging on how people are slowing killing off the things i like, I actually want to talk about my dreams. To those who know me, the one thing i really loved about the marvel portrayed Tony Stark/ Ironman was the fact he was an inventor. Someone who wanted to create things to help society, to create things to revolutionize the way we handle things. Cutting to the point, I always wanted to be like him. No, i do not aim to build an ironman suit, but more towards his other inventions. For one, I never believed that J.A.R.V.I.S was an impossible thing. And I am just talking about the inter-phase of the system. Changing the way we view and use technology. Imagine instead of using stationary computers, you would actually be walking around while you do your work, instead of limiting yourself to a 2-D screen, you could be walking around in an 3-D environment. And this is just the tip of the iceberg, i strongly believe that there is so much we can offer to society if we actually tried. I dream that one day, we would be able to enjoy technology like that and I would really want to say that i contributed to the next technological revolution. Hopefully, my dream can be realised after i am done with my studies in NTU in a few years time
On the more awesome side of this post, I would also like to talk about a dream that was fulfilled. A dream of several young adults that seemed so crazy or even impossible to some. A dream to actually experience an epic meal time, just like those vids on youtube. A dream consisting of 6 burgers (double mac spicy, double quarter pounder, big mac, double down burger, guacamole burger and a famour star), 2 kg of sexy slender bacon strips (2 weaves, 20 solo strips and the rest was made into an omelette), a fuck load of assorted souse from assorted fat food joints (curry and BBQ from macs, house dressing, tartar and honey mustard from Carl's Jr, and the amazing chicken rice souse from the awesome bar called Third & Sixth), a fuck load of cheese and obviously more than enough Bromance from everyone. Cant handle it? DEAL WITH IT. It was truly a great day for everyone who contributed to the success of this awesome operation. The guys for planning and getting the food, myself for being the only one who was confident enough to cook all the uncooked food and obviously the guys on youtube who has inspired us to try something crazy like this. Here is to you guys, thks for filling my entire weekend with the 3 Bs a guy cant live without, Beer, Bacon and Bromance. Looking forward to the next epic shit we are going to do next time.
I would like to end this short post with the verse from the classic song Imagine "You may I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one."
Enough about me raging on how people are slowing killing off the things i like, I actually want to talk about my dreams. To those who know me, the one thing i really loved about the marvel portrayed Tony Stark/ Ironman was the fact he was an inventor. Someone who wanted to create things to help society, to create things to revolutionize the way we handle things. Cutting to the point, I always wanted to be like him. No, i do not aim to build an ironman suit, but more towards his other inventions. For one, I never believed that J.A.R.V.I.S was an impossible thing. And I am just talking about the inter-phase of the system. Changing the way we view and use technology. Imagine instead of using stationary computers, you would actually be walking around while you do your work, instead of limiting yourself to a 2-D screen, you could be walking around in an 3-D environment. And this is just the tip of the iceberg, i strongly believe that there is so much we can offer to society if we actually tried. I dream that one day, we would be able to enjoy technology like that and I would really want to say that i contributed to the next technological revolution. Hopefully, my dream can be realised after i am done with my studies in NTU in a few years time
On the more awesome side of this post, I would also like to talk about a dream that was fulfilled. A dream of several young adults that seemed so crazy or even impossible to some. A dream to actually experience an epic meal time, just like those vids on youtube. A dream consisting of 6 burgers (double mac spicy, double quarter pounder, big mac, double down burger, guacamole burger and a famour star), 2 kg of sexy slender bacon strips (2 weaves, 20 solo strips and the rest was made into an omelette), a fuck load of assorted souse from assorted fat food joints (curry and BBQ from macs, house dressing, tartar and honey mustard from Carl's Jr, and the amazing chicken rice souse from the awesome bar called Third & Sixth), a fuck load of cheese and obviously more than enough Bromance from everyone. Cant handle it? DEAL WITH IT. It was truly a great day for everyone who contributed to the success of this awesome operation. The guys for planning and getting the food, myself for being the only one who was confident enough to cook all the uncooked food and obviously the guys on youtube who has inspired us to try something crazy like this. Here is to you guys, thks for filling my entire weekend with the 3 Bs a guy cant live without, Beer, Bacon and Bromance. Looking forward to the next epic shit we are going to do next time.
I would like to end this short post with the verse from the classic song Imagine "You may I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one."
Wednesday 1 May 2013
Some reasons why i dont want to live on this planet anymore.
Recently, I was watching old movies from the American Pie series, Superbad, Eurotrip, etc... and listening to old school music like sum41, and Fall Out Boy. To many people, esp the teenagers in society, these sort of things would normally be considered old and stupid due to fucked up logic like lack of swag or a lack of pretty boys. In this post, i will be expressing how i feel about certain things in society.
I am pretty disappointed with the way people tend to see things nowadays, esp when it came to things like taste in movies and music, even in the gaming industry.
I will start off with movies. The most common example I am going to talk about is the twilight series. To be honest, i never really hated the storyline. It was the characters and the way the media chooses to show them. For example, lets take a look at the character Edward Cullen. I think when the character was being created in the thought process, what the writer thought would have made him popular was the way he was supposed to be the protagonist in the whole series, a vegan vampire who was supposed to find and have forbidden love with a human. To be able to fight the temptations of sucking the life out of her and to actually find love in a hopeless situation. What the media did, was simply take Robert Pattinson and made him into a disco ball. (I bet some of the girls never knew his real name and just remembered him as Edward) Even Robert himself said that if he wasnt acting in the series itself, he would have hated the movies. Which just goes to show something. Other Characters like Bella Swan. Honestly, as much as we all hate the way she doesnt show much expression and only knows how to whine and just moap around when she couldn't decide between a vampire or a werewolf dick, i honestly cant help but to feel some of us out there really are like that in real life. I, for one would admit that sometimes I feel and behave that way. However, what pisses me off is the fact that what type of example do you want to set for people, esp for those who cant think for themselves and often let themselves be influenced by the media? Imagine this, i am a 14 year old girl who just watched twilight, then i think to myself, maybe if i moap around a handsome guy, he will come back at me? To you feminist out there, this is one reason why i still feel your argument is partially invalid. Movies like Harry Potter and Hunger Games show and exhibit heroines who actually do shit and earn respect. And if girls nowadays are just gonna follow the example of Bella, you are not even giving yourselves a chance to show that you are equal or even bigger than males. Dont get me wrong ok? I dont see females as lesser beings than males. Its just that we all excel in different aspects of life and i want to keep my opinions this way.
Music is another thing that I am becoming more and more speechless about. I am a 22 year old who listens to all assortments of music, ranging from metal and classical, to genres like jazz and even some trance. But i am wondering where our current train of musical progress is headed to. Music in the past used to be ways that musicians express how they felt about the world and how they saw it in ways that we couldn't. Modern music nowadays would simply just talk about how much I wanna fuck this girl or somehow receive pleasure of a sexual nature (from a male artist POV) or simply how I wanna find a boy who will love me forever and make me some sort of queen for the rest of my life so i dont need to ever work hard for the rest of my life or simply just another breakup song saying how i dont wanna be hurt by another guy who pretends to be nice to me so he cant have a pretty face to jerk off to (from a girl POV). Music in the past would actually mean something and a way of life for some people. It used to talk about things that really mattered and things that the artist felt that he could not express simply using words. Examples include John Lennon's Imagine. Such a classic example talking about world peace, where everything and everyone got along. I am sure many, if not all would want an utopia like that. Now we just got Nicki Minaj's way of telling us that spaceships were meant to fly. To me, music is almost dead as its a constant way of making cheap money of people who are submissive to popular demand. Music is supposed to be an expression and a gateway of expressing feelings, hence the saying that music is supposed to be food for the soul. And if lust and stupidity is all we are trying to feed our souls now, then all i can do is watch as the image our musical elders worked so hard over 3 generations to build just crumble down to simple yet so destructive force. In 30 years time, I wouldn't blame my kids if they come home from a Justin Bieber reunion tour or concert telling me that they hated me for listening to things like that.
When it comes to gaming, i would say that this paragraph is meant more for the local regions, mainly the SEA server. First of all, i think its perfectly fine the way most of society plays games like Blackshot, Audition, etc... Its just the people you meet that wanna make you wish sometimes you were living somewhere else. For starters, i would say the people you meet in lan shops. They are mainly nice people who wanna find a place to game and enjoy themselves, regardless of race, age and gender. You have the illegal sec and pri school kids going there (usually in some school shirt or something), the loner white collared working adult who somehow does not have a GF/wife and chooses to spend excessive time in the shop. You also have the constant regular customers who visits almost everyday and do much but to just fill up a slot at a shop permanently. Now comes the main group of people who make everyone else feel regret for coming to a lan shop. These people are the ones with anger issues and often makes gaming in places feel stupid and fucked up. You have girls who cant play audition well, they start banging the key board when they somehow feel that the keyboard isnt sensitive enough. FUCK YOU UNDERSTAND? YOU ARE AT A FUCKING LAN SHOP, EVERY FUCKING DAY THERE ARE AT LEAST A DOZEN DIFFERENT PEOPLE USING THE COM 24/7, OBVIOUSLY AFTER A WHILE THE KEYBOARD LOSES ITS SENSITIVITY. SLAMMING IT ISNT GOING TO SOLVE THE ISSUE, JUST MAKING IT WORSE IN THE LONG RUN. WANNA KNOW SOMETHING? I REALLY HOPE YOU BREAK A NAIL OR SOMETHING SLAMMING THOSE ANOREXIC FINGERS AGAINST THE POOR KEYBOARD. You also meet the typical stereotypical beng in the shop, the ones who simply only know how to play one role in games like Dota2 or LOL, the carry of the team. I used to rmb one time i sat next to a guy playing Dota (few years ago), where he would actually just pick SF and go mid. If he died giving first blood, leave game. If he got items and could not own due to skillful juking and kiting from opponent team, he would just leave game. I mean wow... These are the type of typical players who would accuse you of a KS when he couldnt get the kill if the opponent died or simply a call you a noob for not being able to secure the kill. See the logic? Its either I am a KS king, or some noob who doesnt know how to play. Fuck logic right? To people like that outside, you wanna know what KS means to me? Its not kill steal, its kill secure, so deal with it.
Its really sad to see the way society has progressed over time as I grew up. We were supposed to become a better more advance society, but ironically, this whole post speaks for itself. Long gone were the days where you played teamwork games like Metal Slug and wouldnt rage when your partner had the last hit of the boss, where competitive play only existed in games like Marvel VS Capcom or mortal combat. I have seen the evolution of music, where in the past where music actually sounded like music and meant something to both listeners and artist. After seeing so much society had become over the years, i am simply curious about how it will progress in years to come from now. Just some food for thought and some way to let off steam before i head to bed.
I am pretty disappointed with the way people tend to see things nowadays, esp when it came to things like taste in movies and music, even in the gaming industry.
I will start off with movies. The most common example I am going to talk about is the twilight series. To be honest, i never really hated the storyline. It was the characters and the way the media chooses to show them. For example, lets take a look at the character Edward Cullen. I think when the character was being created in the thought process, what the writer thought would have made him popular was the way he was supposed to be the protagonist in the whole series, a vegan vampire who was supposed to find and have forbidden love with a human. To be able to fight the temptations of sucking the life out of her and to actually find love in a hopeless situation. What the media did, was simply take Robert Pattinson and made him into a disco ball. (I bet some of the girls never knew his real name and just remembered him as Edward) Even Robert himself said that if he wasnt acting in the series itself, he would have hated the movies. Which just goes to show something. Other Characters like Bella Swan. Honestly, as much as we all hate the way she doesnt show much expression and only knows how to whine and just moap around when she couldn't decide between a vampire or a werewolf dick, i honestly cant help but to feel some of us out there really are like that in real life. I, for one would admit that sometimes I feel and behave that way. However, what pisses me off is the fact that what type of example do you want to set for people, esp for those who cant think for themselves and often let themselves be influenced by the media? Imagine this, i am a 14 year old girl who just watched twilight, then i think to myself, maybe if i moap around a handsome guy, he will come back at me? To you feminist out there, this is one reason why i still feel your argument is partially invalid. Movies like Harry Potter and Hunger Games show and exhibit heroines who actually do shit and earn respect. And if girls nowadays are just gonna follow the example of Bella, you are not even giving yourselves a chance to show that you are equal or even bigger than males. Dont get me wrong ok? I dont see females as lesser beings than males. Its just that we all excel in different aspects of life and i want to keep my opinions this way.
Music is another thing that I am becoming more and more speechless about. I am a 22 year old who listens to all assortments of music, ranging from metal and classical, to genres like jazz and even some trance. But i am wondering where our current train of musical progress is headed to. Music in the past used to be ways that musicians express how they felt about the world and how they saw it in ways that we couldn't. Modern music nowadays would simply just talk about how much I wanna fuck this girl or somehow receive pleasure of a sexual nature (from a male artist POV) or simply how I wanna find a boy who will love me forever and make me some sort of queen for the rest of my life so i dont need to ever work hard for the rest of my life or simply just another breakup song saying how i dont wanna be hurt by another guy who pretends to be nice to me so he cant have a pretty face to jerk off to (from a girl POV). Music in the past would actually mean something and a way of life for some people. It used to talk about things that really mattered and things that the artist felt that he could not express simply using words. Examples include John Lennon's Imagine. Such a classic example talking about world peace, where everything and everyone got along. I am sure many, if not all would want an utopia like that. Now we just got Nicki Minaj's way of telling us that spaceships were meant to fly. To me, music is almost dead as its a constant way of making cheap money of people who are submissive to popular demand. Music is supposed to be an expression and a gateway of expressing feelings, hence the saying that music is supposed to be food for the soul. And if lust and stupidity is all we are trying to feed our souls now, then all i can do is watch as the image our musical elders worked so hard over 3 generations to build just crumble down to simple yet so destructive force. In 30 years time, I wouldn't blame my kids if they come home from a Justin Bieber reunion tour or concert telling me that they hated me for listening to things like that.
When it comes to gaming, i would say that this paragraph is meant more for the local regions, mainly the SEA server. First of all, i think its perfectly fine the way most of society plays games like Blackshot, Audition, etc... Its just the people you meet that wanna make you wish sometimes you were living somewhere else. For starters, i would say the people you meet in lan shops. They are mainly nice people who wanna find a place to game and enjoy themselves, regardless of race, age and gender. You have the illegal sec and pri school kids going there (usually in some school shirt or something), the loner white collared working adult who somehow does not have a GF/wife and chooses to spend excessive time in the shop. You also have the constant regular customers who visits almost everyday and do much but to just fill up a slot at a shop permanently. Now comes the main group of people who make everyone else feel regret for coming to a lan shop. These people are the ones with anger issues and often makes gaming in places feel stupid and fucked up. You have girls who cant play audition well, they start banging the key board when they somehow feel that the keyboard isnt sensitive enough. FUCK YOU UNDERSTAND? YOU ARE AT A FUCKING LAN SHOP, EVERY FUCKING DAY THERE ARE AT LEAST A DOZEN DIFFERENT PEOPLE USING THE COM 24/7, OBVIOUSLY AFTER A WHILE THE KEYBOARD LOSES ITS SENSITIVITY. SLAMMING IT ISNT GOING TO SOLVE THE ISSUE, JUST MAKING IT WORSE IN THE LONG RUN. WANNA KNOW SOMETHING? I REALLY HOPE YOU BREAK A NAIL OR SOMETHING SLAMMING THOSE ANOREXIC FINGERS AGAINST THE POOR KEYBOARD. You also meet the typical stereotypical beng in the shop, the ones who simply only know how to play one role in games like Dota2 or LOL, the carry of the team. I used to rmb one time i sat next to a guy playing Dota (few years ago), where he would actually just pick SF and go mid. If he died giving first blood, leave game. If he got items and could not own due to skillful juking and kiting from opponent team, he would just leave game. I mean wow... These are the type of typical players who would accuse you of a KS when he couldnt get the kill if the opponent died or simply a call you a noob for not being able to secure the kill. See the logic? Its either I am a KS king, or some noob who doesnt know how to play. Fuck logic right? To people like that outside, you wanna know what KS means to me? Its not kill steal, its kill secure, so deal with it.
Its really sad to see the way society has progressed over time as I grew up. We were supposed to become a better more advance society, but ironically, this whole post speaks for itself. Long gone were the days where you played teamwork games like Metal Slug and wouldnt rage when your partner had the last hit of the boss, where competitive play only existed in games like Marvel VS Capcom or mortal combat. I have seen the evolution of music, where in the past where music actually sounded like music and meant something to both listeners and artist. After seeing so much society had become over the years, i am simply curious about how it will progress in years to come from now. Just some food for thought and some way to let off steam before i head to bed.
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